A Cupcake Promenade

Baby Girl Knows Her Video Game Characters

2009-01-11T13:27:00.003-07:00

CUTE! I luff how she says "pika pika" hehe

Hai, Snow / Keep Calm, Mouse

2008-12-17T21:21:00.005-07:00

Haaai! Loooong ½ week back. I got a few (real) mail/card/letters while I was away that I have to respond to. This time of year it rains words from relatives I forgot to remember even existed. Last year around this time it wasn't Merry Christmas cards I was getting, though. I was getting "We're praying for you" greetings from the Creationist side of the family, with an occasional balloon cluster or a temporary hospital arrangement of dyed carnations.

The weather looks pretty grouchy out. I think there may be snow by morning. It's obvious to me that I'm still nervous about driving in the snow.. You know, I can turn off the other fears or desires in my life like a faucet when I have to but when it comes to certain things it's like I'm completely without armor. They say it's the little things in life that kill so maybe fate and life are just hazing me before something bigger happens.. I know it brought my mother and me from zero communication to a phone call every night. So maybe a scar and sudden chionophobia on days I have to drive is the price I paid for that?

* * *

Speaking of keeping calm, the "Keep Calm" print came in and it is a little bit more this pink than I thought it would be, which is fine. I don't colour discriminate. [cue Fry and Bender's "Wooooo"]

I also bought a bolt of beaded fabric for pillows since the prices for the accent pillows I've liked has been fairly humorous. I found these, individually sold pillow cases:

I like the personal touch but it's unlikely I'll buy those four just to spell my name. It was just for blog show-and-tell.

Oh, when I was in San Antonio (woo Spurs!) I got sick and I guess whatever I had in my system I passed to my brother and now he is le barfing and I've still got a touch of it.

BTW!! Last thing I'm going to say is that everyone needs to go see or pirate a cam recording of The Tale of Despereaux! I know they've changed a lot of things from the book but (I think) characters are rarely more beloved onscreen as they are when they're just a character description and a few quotes in a book.

Anyways, a few years ago we got the advanced copy of The Tale of Despereaux (the book ) at the library and I read it in two afternoons but it was such a powerful little book. All the characters are a part in each other's true happiness. It's a good story!! Watch it if you can!

EDIT: The movie SUCKED!

If you lived here you'd be home now

2008-12-12T21:46:00.003-07:00

My pillow and my iPod - the only things that got me through the car/jet lag!

GASP! I'm home again. Finally! I was home briefly for my birthday, which was so nice! I spent a goofy day with my mom and my brother. The day was confettiful as there was cake, ice cream and geese we fed at the park. When we got home my brother played "Birthday Dethday" for me. I guess it's become a traditional birthday song between him 'n me.

The day was supposed to involve me meeting up with my dad but he canceled at the last minute. He literally called me at THE moment I was about to exit my front door. I wasn't sad I PROMISE! The day was too good to be anything but cheerful. By the way, I turned:

& I got emails + e-cards from a few people Thank you.

My mom took my brother and me out to a really schmancy restaurant. They secretly told some nub that it was my birthday and the waiter brought me a pretty slice of cake at dessert. We divvied it up and it was small but good. Uhm.. I was just glad they didn't sing the Happy Birthday song.. Then my face would have matched my dress- PINK!

It was a lot of traveling. We zoomed over to see my niece's new baby. Her boyfriend (Christopher) came over twice to see the baby.

He named the him Jermal. My niece (Deborah) asked me if I liked Elijah or Isaiah more for his middle name. I said I liked Elijah more and told her the biblical story. She liked it and gave him Elijah. YAY I HALPED!

& Awww I got to take care of him while everyone went out to the flea markets. I fell in LVE right at the moment I took him in my arms. I'm not sure that motherhood is in the cards for me but if there is time, then all I need is faith.. and the right man. If it's something I really want and it hasn't happened by the time I'm 32, I'd probably adopt. It's sad though because I always wanted to adopt a child with special needs but that's prob'ly never going to happen.

Well I'm sleelish so I'll go nap out now. night-night!

Keep Calm and Carry On

2008-11-14T21:55:00.000-07:00

Haaai! I bought that a few days ago from Keep Calm Gallery. Ever since I painted the walls neutral colours (white mostly) I feel a lot more expressive about what I put up and in my house. I'm a lot more.. I don't want to say girly but definitely more lucid.

!! There's a bunch of stuff in boxes now and I'm considering parting with my horror collection.. I think I've outgrown it... I mean, it's still a big part of me and I horror movies but I think it stifled the part of me that is completely antithetical to the other me that a lot of people seem to f-o-c-u-s on. And, in hindsight, I'm seeing that I was attracting the wrong kind of people and, for some reason, it made some people think I was all about horror and sometimes just general ugliness. A certain person said this site's layout was very me...

I had no idea people thought that of me... It's such a bummer. But I hope that people don't judge me for liking cute stuf eitherr. I like the cute and I like the serious. I'm political but I also lolol @ dick jokes, etc.

& that's all I could think of to post

Daylight Savings Time

2008-11-02T08:06:00.001-07:00

Kitty & Turtle

2008-10-31T05:02:00.000-07:00

Birthday Dresses!

2008-10-30T23:49:00.003-07:00

Every year I get a new birthday dress. Last year I got something simple by TON. I accidentally spilled bleach on it though (fuck you bleach!) So I only wore it in the fitting room and on my birth anniversary of last year. Ohwell~ These are from Postlapsaria.

Today I choose to be happy

2008-10-30T18:19:00.004-07:00

Hmm I'm thinking about adding moods section thing to my blog. Usually I tend to be very moody so maybe that's not a good idea... I have a lot of reason to be happy today though.

My friend and I reconnected after 5+ months of no communication.. I feel loved and how could being loved not make someone happy? *loved*
My brother and his gf have been together for 6 months and they're really happy
My mom has enough money to spend in on a vacation (she deserves it)
My aunt's checkup showed no signs of tumors!!!
Drake turned one!
Halloween is tomorrow
Still smiling because Pan da got my card

Reasons I have not to be happy are not as important. Even if there were 1,000 reasons to be miserable and only two to be happy.. Happy always outweighs unhappy.

Retarded eDrama because apparently I have to be on at all times, otherwise zomg people think I'm mad; other people were brought into it, and apparently, even though I haven't even talked to anyone else about this, all three think I'M the one overreacting...? blehh w/e have fun with it, guys.
Still haven't heard from another very important person in a long time.. I think about him every day though... I hope he's ok.
Chiquita (my mom's dog) had 4 puppies, three died

Powered By Ramen

2008-10-29T22:53:00.001-07:00

I've decided to stop eating ramen. I've been meaning to for awhile now. I use to eat ramen when I had very little pocket money and it became a staple in my pantry. So when I don't feel like cooking or whatever I always end up making ramen.

The real reason, though, is because there's no nutritional value whatsoever in ramen, it's nothing but fat and it's overprocessed... blau blau blau

I'm using new emoticons too! They're by the infamous Darkmoon3636

Also, a new kitty is hanging around my house with Boris and Tig. She's just a baby kitty and she looks just like a dust bunny. Idk what to name her yet. Shae's kitty matriarch is already named Bunny.

OH! OH! OH! And Pan da received the card I sent to him. But he says I write like a boy.

The Weekend!

2008-10-29T05:03:00.004-07:00

Haaaii

So the weekend went well. I got to hang out with my dad for an hour and a half! He kept checking his watch, though.. I guess he had somewhere he had to be right after our thing. I wore cowboy boots* I think to impress him. He noticed 'em. heh... He mentioned that they looked very narrow and I just smiled..
Overall, hmm it was nice. I was so tense that my arms hurt for most of the day and when I came home I just felt like sleeping.. Oh, we ate at a nice place near the river. I had a salad with tangerine in it. It was something my mom would have liked better than me. Fruits + veggies don't mix on my palate, personally. He had a giant steak, then, with it being 80° here, we had butter pecan ice cream with cigarette cookies for dessert.

We didn't hug or anything gay like that.. He never mentioned if we would do this again, though, which left me kind of disappointed.. and for a couple of days after I was totally bummed.

But after talking to Draggie he made me realize how lucky I am for just being able to do that with him... Whatever the future holds for us in there for us to reach for. The people who care about you are what matter most. And I can't stop caring about him... So whether he takes it or not, the love is always there for him. I can't really beg anyone to let me be there for them. So I'll just leave it. And if he wants it, he's welcome to it. And if he doesn't, he'll always have it. Whether he needs it, whether he feels it or not it's there.

*well, thet had heels but the looked cowboyish..

NEW BLOGS!

2008-10-26T04:18:00.003-07:00

Alch and BYA have blogs now .
Thanks guys ^____^
(the comic is related to the name and layout that BYA has)
(it reminds me of yumelicious bubble tea)
(comic by kawaii not)

Emmy the Great - My Party Is Better Than Yours

2008-10-25T03:25:00.003-07:00

Yay. My first video posted on YouTube! It's not really a video-video, it's just the song, which I CURIOUSLY found wasn't on YouTube. The image is very blurry but the original was ok.. Oh well. The song is what matters. & It's very so cute. The lyrics are obvious. If you have ears, use them.

iPod Touch

2008-10-23T21:14:00.003-07:00

So my mom, my brother (the second youngest; the only one I really talk to out of the other 9) and me hung out today. My mother won't be able to be with me on my birthday because my niece is having her baby (yay) around the time my birthday rolls around. We drove around, talked, laughed, bought ice cream then shopped around to come down from the sugar high. Mom spends Christmas with her husband's fam in Portales so we won't see her during the holidays either.

Anyway, she bought my brother a 360 and she bought me a 16G iPod Touch. Yay. Although the screen is ultra, incredibly strong (check this YouTube vid out), I still feel like I should get a nice protective skin. I told Kevin about it and he bought me the one above from GelaSkins, by artist Kathie Olivas.
There be the two nicest people I'll ever be Loved by.

Baby Cade

2008-10-23T13:44:00.002-07:00

This weekend I'm very nervous. I'm going to see my biological father, Benancio. I haven't seen my dad on a daily basis since I was that age^

I haven't talked to him in such a long time that I'm becoming physically ill at the possibility of him not canceling...

* * * * *

I get all my neuroses from my father. My inability to take any expression of love seriously, my preoccupation with daydreaming, my restlessness, and the way I either let go too soon or hold on for too long... The only things I got from my mother were my eyes and the way I treat people without any malice aforethought yet still manage to hurt the people I most care about.

I also get my wordiness from my father...

There's so many things he missed, so many lies I believed and so many reasons to never speak to him again. But my dad is the one love I feel like I lost.. I feel like I missed out on so much just because I didn't have a real dad. I can't help but think that maybe I would be a completely different person if he had stuck around. One with less emotional involvement. One less self-destructive.

Since we're so alike, he and I, maybe he feels the same way. And maybe he does want to make it right. Or maybe he only wants to set things right before he leaves again.

If he can get over it then so can I...

Panda's Music Blog

2008-10-21T03:36:00.002-07:00

by Peter-Pan Syndrome

The Panda has a new blog

WALL STICKERS!

2008-10-20T20:22:00.007-07:00

I think I've always been delighted with stickers. I used to have Lisa Frank stationery scattered all over my room. And now I've found reusable wall stickers! This one is way amazing. I also found some elegant alternatives at Saint Honore and more~!

I'm thinking Banksy was a big influence on the b/w ones.

Mitzy!

2008-10-19T15:31:00.004-07:00

She's a dog.

Happy Sponges!

2008-10-18T19:52:00.004-07:00

I'm maybe neat-freaky in certain areas of the house like the kitchen, bathroom, bedroom, guest bedroom, home office aaand the closets. (I grew up in a really messy house.) It's not an ocd, not an ocd, not an ocd...

Anyhow, I'm quite miffy~ these sponges are only available in Japan.

Typo #7

2008-10-17T16:06:00.001-07:00

lol niger (bya typo; 17-10-2008 @ 17:03)

He meant to say "lol nigel"

Typo #6

2008-10-16T19:25:00.001-07:00

My tow hurts (cade typo; 16-10-2008 @ 20:31)

lolcandle

2008-10-16T17:08:00.002-07:00

I thought this was cool. It's from Fine Star Store. The other ones are also totally gay and say things like: HUNG, PLAYTIME, FLAMER, PRICK, and GOLDEN SHOWER.

Typo #5

2008-10-16T15:21:00.001-07:00

CAID (bya typo; 16-10-2008 @ 12:07)

New Obsession

2008-10-16T12:38:00.004-07:00

I'm obsessed with this lotion. OBSESSED. My hands smell like a bouquet. Ok, ok. I am a self-confessed product slut but if anyone smelled this they would be addicted too!

Monkee Board

2008-10-13T16:08:00.002-07:00

I want this.

Typo #4

2008-10-13T15:50:00.002-07:00

hokes (bya typo; 13-10-2008 @ 15:49)

The sentence was "alch, you missed black hokes" He meant black jokes. We were telling black jokes lolz

Typo #3

2008-10-13T15:12:00.002-07:00

yea io know (bya typo; 13-10-2008 @ 15:11)

Typo #1

2008-10-13T14:05:00.001-07:00

bounvy (bya typo; 12-10-2008 @ 20:21)

Typo #2

2008-10-13T14:01:00.000-07:00

hove (draggie typo; 13-10-2008 @ 13:58)

New.Account

2008-10-11T19:34:00.001-07:00

Yay.

New Account.

Cupcade.

How clever.

I've added

all

of

you

Baby.Gift

2008-10-11T18:06:00.000-07:00

Oh, so my niece (Deborah) is with bun in oven. It's due on the 29th of November but her baby shower is this month... Actually, it's THIS WEEK. I'm such an awesome aunt - I still haven't gotten her anything yet. People are both use to and forgiving of my shitty sense of timing. I always keep my word but it ~~sometimes~~ .. ~~usually~~ ... always takes awhile... Not something I'm proud of..

Anyway, we are living in an awesome time for product whores who have babies. There are sooo many cool baby things now. I can't even decide what to gift the little guy. My choices are above. I can either get the baby car seat snuggle (that's the lime green anthropomorphic coverlet thing) or I can get the binky, the shoes, and the "BITCH Better Get My Bottle" onesie. If anyone reads this blog still HALP.

Sidenote: The mushroom tent was more, like, something I want.

Interview.With.A.Phazon.&.A.Tashee

2008-05-25T10:39:00.000-07:00

It might be a little crooked. As lame as it sounds it took me an hour to put together. But f'reals!! How srsly cool are these two ppl?!

Sumpthing.For.Tashee

2008-05-23T04:58:00.000-07:00

This is something I bought for Tashee today on Etsy.
I dunno but it sure ~~screams~~ sings 'Tashee', doesn't it?!

Robot.Bag

2008-05-22T04:15:00.000-07:00

Looks more like a metallic bunbun to me
I found it on Refuse to Be Usual.

Interview.With.A.Tashee

2008-05-18T03:46:00.002-07:00

Other interviews will be posted at a later date.

Still.Needs.New.Dishes.

2008-05-17T05:45:00.001-07:00

I asked the usual gang to plz select some new dishes for me to buy. We all agreed that Tashee's picks would be very hard to beat. No one else really showed me anything, aside from Draggie who showed me a lot of dragon stuff. I think these were his favourite.

*Tashee's picks*

A.Dragon.Drew.This.For.Me

2008-05-17T02:48:00.000-07:00

A drawing for me by Draggie

Metalocalypse!

2008-05-16T18:20:00.001-07:00

New episodes this Sunday on [adult swim]!

Cupcake.Speakers

2008-05-02T12:22:00.001-07:00

I need these

Heartbroken

2008-05-01T13:06:00.004-07:00

The kitten I was supposed to adopt got killed by the lady's neighbor's dogs. She had about 5 or 6 kitties and all of them got killed. My bunnies got killed by some strays last year and so did my cat Cecil...

Why can't people take better care of their pets? It's not that hard and if it is then why bother getting them in the first place...?

A.Poem.By.Tashee

2008-04-30T01:03:00.002-07:00

CADEY IS A NUT

SHE HAS A RUBBER BUTT

EVERY TIME SHE TURNS AROUND, IT GOES PUT-PUT!

Needs.New.Dishes

2008-04-23T13:27:00.002-07:00

I'm donating all my plain dishes n stuff to Naoh's Ark and so I need to buy new ones. I want something pretty but playful now. I never imagined it would be so hard to choose! I found these from Pepe & Friends and I think the canister set and everything is cuter than cute, don't you?

A.New.Sig

2008-04-23T12:08:00.007-07:00

New sig for ProM (click here for bigger view).

Happy Earth Day =]

2008-04-22T12:53:00.000-07:00

“The earth is what we all have in common.” -Wendell Barry

Missions For This Week

2008-04-22T11:05:00.004-07:00

Upload more music
~~Send Tashee's letter (lolsnailmail)~~
Clean around house and donate stuff -->
Learn at least five phrases in Finnish
Make cupcakes
~~Respond to all my emails~~
Hike and take pictures
Import the rest of my music library
~~Get groceries...~~
Get everyone to start/restart their own blogs and journals (so I can snoop)
~~Finish this layout~~

I.Lyk.Choclit.Meelk

2008-04-21T02:49:00.000-07:00

Hai gaiz! I'm on the interwebz, publishing my thoughts!!